[It's easier for him to touch Kevin when he isn't being watched, when it's unexpected, under the guise of more testing when really now he's just giving in to what he wants to do. He knows it isn't really fair, not with the way Kevin keeps trying to touch him back, his fingers brushing through Emery's hair gently. But letting him respond feels too much like letting this be real again. And he's not sure he's ready for that.
Still, he lifts his hand, putting it under Kevin's arm, both to hold it up and so that when Emery pulls his lips away, it doesn't break their contact again. He isn't gone long, only moving enough to go higher, pressing the next kiss to the middle of Kevin's forearm.
For as much as he isn't really testing theories anymore, it does still give him information. Every time his lips press against Kevin, he feels it more intensely, any touch still helps, the pain always at ease as long as they are connected, but it's like his lips send more direct lines of pleasure pulsing through him, something that is far different from when he uses just his hand. He's not sure if he's the one making it a bigger deal, or if it's another soulmate thing. Asking feels like it might break the moment, and he doesn't want to do that, not when it feels so fragile already.]
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Still, he lifts his hand, putting it under Kevin's arm, both to hold it up and so that when Emery pulls his lips away, it doesn't break their contact again. He isn't gone long, only moving enough to go higher, pressing the next kiss to the middle of Kevin's forearm.
For as much as he isn't really testing theories anymore, it does still give him information. Every time his lips press against Kevin, he feels it more intensely, any touch still helps, the pain always at ease as long as they are connected, but it's like his lips send more direct lines of pleasure pulsing through him, something that is far different from when he uses just his hand. He's not sure if he's the one making it a bigger deal, or if it's another soulmate thing. Asking feels like it might break the moment, and he doesn't want to do that, not when it feels so fragile already.]